The Struggle Of Self Worth

Hello my loves!

Today I was thinking of something a bit different from my usual posts. I don't want to be closed off into a box, where all I talk about is make up and beauty. I want it to be a kind of 'I'll write what I want' kinda blog. 

So here it is...

Recently the whole subject of self worth has been popping up all around my life. To some it's a touchy subject, but to others it's something they don't even notice or merely don't care (you're the lucky ones I tell you, the less you care the better you are). 

But in my life, this year particularly I reached a point where all of a sudden I was thrown into the deep end and had to make some decisions that affect my future, once my decisions were made I just got told by different people how my decisions were wrong, silly, dumb etc. From constantly hearing these things from people whom I thought had my best interests at heart made me question my own decisions. It made me think, 'hey maybe this is wrong...maybe this past year of hard work was a waste' 

After a lot of thinking, I realised that what I wanted to do was what I was going to do. However once again, I copped a lot for it. It came to a point where I'd get upset when people would even ask about it. It made me feel like all the walls were closing in (dramatic I know, but it was true). You feel like you're stuck, no where to go... feeling pretty worthless. 

The whole time there was only one person who stood by my choices, my guardian angel lets say, and really helped me realise that I don't need to get approval, all I need to do is trust in myself that I know what I'm doing even if I have no clue, but as he always said 'it's a learning curve'. 

Although for now I'm not where I planned to be, I'm still going to get there, it may take me days, weeks, months or years... But I will get there and I'll work hard for it. 

One day it'll all be worth it, until then I'm going to stick it out and enjoy the ride. Nothing else we can do. 

Hope this makes you realise that you may not be able to do everything, but you can die trying. 

For now, take care. 

-Zoe xoxo